hey all.

mr chan's concert last night. lol i was sitting in the 1st row. neck pain, but a very close-up view of the cellist and mr chan. can hear him breathe. his breathing is like part of the music. actually i hav nth much to say abt it. its juz a nice concert.

feeling damn pissed. geog project is supposed to be due next week, and andika and kai sherng are still like not giving a damn shit. yeah i noe theres tests next week, and you all need to mug. not like i don't need. at least get this freaking geog done and over with, then go for your whatever mugging and stuff. n yet you all are daoing me when i ask you all online for a time to meet. n then log off seconds after i send my message to you. we'r together for PROJECTS DAY. if you all r gonna b like this for projectsday, i srsly don't noe wat to say. now im havin the thoughts of soloing the geog project and get you all into hot soup. yeah i noe its not as important as gettin our tests right, but the deadline is on MONDAY. we still have a few more days before our tests. and its not an easy project. we still have to test it out somehow and we have a powerpoint to make. do you think we can get all these done in like an afternoon? what great minds you have there.

everythin's screwed up. our drama is due on monday too, and we havent even rehearsed once. and i still have to edit the script. jun hong is struggling with the props, i think. n zhou lida is gonna screw us.

ohwell. yeah maths test next wed, and we'r havin remedial on monday afternoon. guess it'll clash with science quiz training. fancy missing the 1st ever training. leetk is so unkind. when we asked him abt science quiz, he answered like hes gonna punch us in the nose. i feel like doin tat to him now. no joke.

i still have a long way for to kill a mockingbird. and its needed next week. great. guess now huang will screw me. monday will b a great day. 1st maths torture, than zhou lida, then huang. i wonder whats next.

sometimes i juz hate life. wait. i think i hate it all the time.

february is almost here. and i can feel that im getting more and more blur in school. bad sign. guess i'm thinking too much. my thoughts are always somewhere else. n it doenst feel good thinking elsewhere, cos it always arrives at one single thought.

guess i'd better do some hw now.

Nope. I'm not gonna give up. Never...

CNY today. n im nt in a good mood at all.

i can never really understand what this world is all about. especially everything about fate n that sort.

and yeah i don't think i'm having a good fate. i just don't feel good. life doesn't seem good. i juz dunno how to describe it. but wait - is it just me, or is that every1 is like this?

im rather hoping that some miracles might just happen, but yet i don't want it to happen. it's contradicting, and i dunno what to do. and now i realised how restricted i am, and that its impossible for me to do just some simple things. the only way is to hide it and get it planned perfectly that there are no glitches or screwups along the way. and for all these things, others can do it openly, and no one bothers. i guess it's just my fate.

and yes, im in council. im in the cmc. im useful to the class, to the school, in all these aspects. but what's the point, when i cant even achieve the basics?

hold on. actually i can, its only that im restricted to do so, in many ways. it sucks on the thought of it. going against fate is what i want to do all the time. but i have yet to find out how.

for this post im crapping shit. and im nt expecting anyone to read this. but if someone actually did, i have no choice. barely anyone would understand this anyway.

i feel like punching something. i punched my bed last night, but it didnt go well. maybe i should try on the wall. it's hard and there won't be much noise. i don't mind if it hurts. crack a finger or sth. at least i get to punch out everything.

All these crap, don't bother understanding.

No way...

Ahuh a screwed up week. More or less.

But first lets talk about some good stuff.

HWACHONG INVEST 09!!! A bit of screwups along the way, but all quite smooth. n yeah im officially invested as an iCOUNCILLOR!!! yeah! gettin my badge in erm... about 2 weeks' time. looking forward to it!

moving down to the not-so-good stuff.

Ms Huang's first 100 word reflection. wait. actually the 2nd. yeah. nt that bad. onli tat i dun even noe wat im actually punished for. n i dun hav any idea when she mentioned tat word to us. yeah. heck care, since its over. anw its a class punishment (except for guai kia leslie).

ive been sleeping late these days. mainly cos of over-commitment. n yeah. saikang commitments. n as a result of tat i almost got fever. yes i somehow got it under control n im ok now. other than a bit of sore throat. but i dun blame the saikang work. i chose this path. n i noe my sacrifice is important to the school. Maybe we need a pledge. A short one...

We, the Saikang Warriors of Hwa Chong, pledge to sacrifice our legs, hands, backs, and in general, our health, to serve the school with pride and loyalty.

No joke. I think tats what we'r doin all these for. As Mr Chua has said, "It's our job." We'r not doing these for CIP, nor do we get any. I cant get anymore from intra-school activities anyway. Maxed out my 4 hrs durin sec1 parents symposium. We are the councillors of Hwa Chong. Yeah.

华侨中学第36届学生理事会，
誓言团结一致，戮力同心，
为学生服务。我们将本着
己欲立而立人，己欲达而达人，
及自强不息的精神，
为华侨中学实现世界级学府的目标奋斗。
We, the Student Councillors of Hwa Chong,
Pledge to unite the school,
And uphold the Hwa Chong spirit,
To serve the school with utmost pride and passion,
To be ressiliant and fighting-strong at times of adversity,
And be examplary in word and in deed.

Thats the council pledge. dun say im mad. its wat we councillors are for.

cny is comin in a few days. nt like im gonna get angpow money by the hundreds or the thousands. if i can get 50 bucks i'd b happy. but its nearly impossible.

gotta go do hw liao. the extra holi on wed is for CIP... ):

Bye.

Oh no...

im posting again tis weekend cos im real bored.

this is absolute crap man. im actually more or less solo-ing the lit poem project. n the rest r slacking off, providing like a little bit of stuff. ryan contributed quite alot, dk too. the rest... haiz. shit.

finished drama script! it reminds me of "the origin of bak gua" i had in p5 or p6, i cant rmb. well sad i nv had the chance to act it out. spent so much time on it. i hav hmm... 2 versions and i tink around 8 sub-versions for v1. v2 has around 3 sub-versions. n i love tat group. everyone is at least kinda functioning. it was fun, making all those.

n tat reminds me of qifa. lets skip tis topic, cos i dun wan to go into the details now.

looking ahead.

1st event - my aunt is coming from china tonight. n staying for 1 day. shes an air stewardess. yeah. so hopefully theres nth after sch tmr.

2nd event - council investiture on wed. n tokin abt tis, glendon has nt uploaded the song and the pledge on egroups yet. damn lag. our dear icouncil chair. wow. amazing.

3rd event - i wont call tis an event thou. openhouse OT. im the progs IC. n im supposed to be the OS for next yr. smart. if im in exco next yr how am i gonna b OS? real smart. anw, i gotta do quite alot of stuff as progs IC, but it sounds fun! and yeah im gonna take watever challenge they give me. yes.

the rest, im nt gonna care.

nt sure if i got into publications for tis yr's ANGLES. best i dun get in. regretted responding to tat message. haiz. im blasting myself.

ohwell. anyone has younger brothers in p6? come to HCI OPENHOUSE!!! the date is not yet confirmed, but yeah i'll post again when it is.

school starts again tmr. n wat a week im gonna hav. a rather screwed one i tink.

i dun feel like i can write long, but amazingly when i crap on my blog its much longer than i expected. wow.

oh yah. weidong's b'day tmr. Happy b'day to him!!!

c'ya. gotta go do hw. i still hav LEP... shit...

Please, don't think that way...

Ahh another week has passed. now i've gotta start looking forward to the next one... n its a 5-day break for us!! well, including wed, which is s'posed to b a free slot for us to go for CIP...

oh great investiture next wed. n rehearsal next tues, which means i hav to skip another orch rehearsal. mr chan's so gonna kill me. i've been skipping too many rehearsals bcoz of council. n now i dun even noe if my shirt is "up to standard", cos im usin my father's one and i dunno if the white is correct. sec 4 pants... looks nice and feels nice too! i like it! its the onli long pants which i liked since young...

wlao. rehearsal after cny celebrations... dun noe if i can go back to qifa. shit. i shud consult lin zhuo again.

openhouse ot 1st meeting today. n my role is assigned!! Programs I/C. cool! at first OS say muz assign tat role to ppl who r nt running for exco 2010, cos progs IC muz b OS next yr, n OS cant b from exco. but yeah almost all sec2s want to run for exco, so he called glendon n he gave in!! YEAH! i love progs. n yeah every OT member is supposed to think of 10 possible slogans for tis yr's openhouse. still racking my brains for possibilities...

i juz realised i havent been replying tags these days. well im gonna reply after tis. my "policy" of "reply every 3 tags" has kinda failed now. haha.

omg projects r screwing me up... geog project, n projects day coming up. shud i get external ppl? we hav 1 more slot in the team. andika, kai sherng n i. n no, i dun find anyone in 2i4 suitable to fill tat gap. maybe we shud juz keep it tat way.

parent's symposium for sec1 parents ytd. n i was selected as RECEPTION MANAGER. stone there, make sure the wind doesnt blow away the spoons, n yeah. kinda help out somewhat like a static usher. cos its pointless u stand there n dun do anythin. ppl will tink u r there to steal food. -.-

the parents damn kiasi man. spam mr tankk like shit abt CCAs ending at 6+. wow. n the kids hav to do hw until 1+ 2+. wat kind of work r they doin ah? they'r sec1 man. smart. cca in sec sch r nt like pri sch lah. wat 2h per session n 1ce per wk? impossible. its at least around 8h a week, i tink. n yeah, theres time BEFORE cca to do hw rite. tats how hc trains self-discipline. n doin hw at home oso. its called self-discipline n self-control. smart parents.

ahuh. im selected to b emcee for sec2 level assembly tis coming tues. n the panelists r weiheng and yongming. ym is nt doin anythin abt it man. hes supposed to email dr hon n ask abt the topic. we'r running out of time, n i havent received his email. screwed.

yup i juz remembered tat i havent finished the SOO post and havent posted on viola outing i tink. but who cares abt viola outing. i'll try to spare time to finish SOO. not forgetting, im loaded with hw, projects, council stuff, and 2 instruments. great.

im officially in for SYF!!! or at least, confirmed for the moment. and im the 1st person (from the back). great. n onli sec2 violist! dunno how many v2 sec2s are playin. heard theres gonna b none other than the ASL.

tats all for now. bye.

I still don't get it.

Oh, wat great days which just passed. I hope it could pass faster. Nono, there isnt any sarcasm in this. Not at all.

Lets talk about history.

Andika's house for the whole day. great. onli got history done. -.- n yeah they were playin psp and watching anime. wtf.

ohwell. chioning homework on sunday. like i noe how to do them. screw it. Huang gave us 2/3 of the hw we had for the weekends. n shes like still talkin in a tone as if we didnt get enough. screw.

oh today was "Great".

first, history presentation. great we sourced the wrong info, and the sources are nt reliable. haiz.

drama was worse than pe. we were made to run around the black box and recite tongue-twisters. haiz. and then we were supposed to push this imaginary wall. its forcing the shit out of me. then those continuous story-telling. u noe, i say one sentence n pass to u, then u say one sentence. it goes on. sux. esp when it stopped like 3 people before me. spoil the fun.

the rest of the lessons, i wont elaborate. other than chinese, where i was forced to switch places with yong jian. oh. greatest experience of the 21st century. takes loads of guts to even put a pen on tat table. ewww...

oh afternoon cmc meeting. fantastic. zicong was the iCMG chairman. n we'r supposed to elect the other positions. like juz point, say the name, and hes in. wow. yu quan got vice chairman, and right after his name was down, I GOT FREAKING SABOED!!! i got vice chair in training. shit. at least, we got jay as secretary, leslie as welfare in training i tink, and luther as sec1 coordinator. whoohoo. we'r supposed to show ourselves durin consortium assembly... yeah like stand there like dummies, call ur name, wave, and get lost. yeah. sth like tat. wow. amazing.

upon glaring at the smb juznow, i realised im selected for SCIENCE QUIZ TRAINING. wat the crap. its called Science Quiz Training for Advanced Science Curriculum. i didnt get into maths quiz last yr, now i got science!?!?! and leslie n bowei is with me. i wonder which science sub i shud choose. haiz.

i'll end here, cos still got hw to do.

Life is unfair...

oh great. 1st week juz ended.

and yeah ep3 orientation officially ended today. can say im rather happy, cos the sec1s are like... argh... but today it was quite smooth. at least better than wednesday.

whoo went to orch after ep3 orientation, cos we ended rather on time. and yeah used Larry's viola for the moment. didnt even expect tat orch practice havent end at 6. yeah its rather hard training. Mr Chan is gettin more stern n strict.

gd thing to hear tat assessments are onli for violins now. if violas r gonna hav assessments it'll onli b afte cny. cos Dr Yeo is teaching us the pieces, so Mr Chan has no fear. and yeah he said tat there muz b at least 8 in viola, and im the 8th violist! great im in for SYF, unless i get pwned by some sec1, which is rather impossible. who would want to learn a viola? lol.

but haiz sad tat i cant go back to Qifa on CNY. we hav to stay back for orch, and who noes when it's gonna end. depends on Mr Chan's mood. haiz... damn screwed.

well. im supposed to say "class stand" and "class bow" in MALAY for Malay Studies. great. now im gonna go "3 tongues". forget about jap. i forgot 90% of it.

dun bother to post too much. a lump of homework and projects which i nid to clear now. goin to Andika's house with Kai Sherng tmr to do history project, geog maybe, and of course, chiong some homework together too. n gotta mug viola and piano - im laggin in aural.

bye.

WHY???

Almost a week since school has started. and yeah homework is starting to flood in. plus all those council and cmc work. i doubt im gonna survive much longer.

ep3 orientation for sec1s today. and im damn pissed with them. all their seniors are. these little bustards just wont shut up and give their respect to seniors when they'r toking. and they love to procrastinate. and yeah, complaining the whole way that the orientation is boring, and tat they hav to freaking climb the stairs... it goes on. and wat happened durin tat 2 days of orientation? quiet like shit. and procrastination. complaining. screw them. how much effort has the OT put in just to organise tat fucking 2 days of orientation for them? how much effort has the ep3 ppl put in juz for their fucking ep3 orientation? and how many spared a thought for the buddies who fucking spent 4 days of the holis and 3 afternoons juz to bring this fucking batch for orientation? i pity the next batch of sec1s in 2010. this 2009 batch is gonna pass this fucking shit attitude on.

sry to b so vulgur. juz feel damn pissed.

let us all vote for LIKI to be our next HSC CHAIRMAN!!! whoohoo!!! three cheers for LIKI!!!

i cant post much, and so i wont. wont b posting frequently either, cos no time.

syf is coming. and yeah im lucky to skip auditions on friday. but sometimes it can b an unlucky thing too.

thats all for today. i'll end off by wishing Puijeng a Happy Birthday!!!

NO...

Oh great Day 1 just passed...

Yeah morning was like damn screwed. wandering around the terraces and i dun c any "lost sheep". n yeah theres tis damn short sec3 and i mistook him for a sec1!!! screwed.

shiehls is like erm... yeah. you get the point. juz loves to say all those like wat chinese proverbs and watever of tat sort. confusing like shit.

consortium assembly was like normal. onli tat it cut into our recess -.- and lower sec talk was boring lah. nth much to say.

and yeah voting for CMC after the assemblies. argh. screw it. i got saboed for MONITOR... yeah n its a voting, nt like you want to b one. n its voting by the peers, not the teacher. shit. ppl r counting on me. n im nt prepared... better get the job done right.

i dunno lah but yeah ppl hate shiehls. esp the seniors. mingkang had tis short convo with me and yeah it juz shows sth about shiehls.

mk: "lemme ask you a question. your form teacher sheihls?"
me: "yeah..."
mk: "I laugh at you. HAHAHA."

n he walked away. omg. can c how they hate shiehls...

ooohhh ep3 orientation is sucky. esp without the cheering. so im nt gonna say much about it.

Don't you understand the meaning of it?

school starts tmr...

at least, its not the start of lessons...

looking at time table juznow. i feel so screwed. ms huang is actually our english n lit teacher... all the best to 2I4

at last, i finished one of my compos today. n it took me the whole day... how the hell can i improve on chinese compos??? my parents are giving me solutions which will definitely work IF i had all the time in the world. haiz...

replacing mingkang for tmr's CCA orientation, most likely. hope we can cheer again, although the possibilities are damn low. i still havent cheered enough. still feelin damn hyped up now.

wishin everyone all the best in the new school year. >.<

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