Last day of school coming. And frankly, I DONT like it.

Last day of school... gah. 2 major things will happen: loads of homework to hand up, and we'll receive loads of homework.

Now I have chapter reflections for TKAM to do. And I only did like two-thirds of a chapter. Have 30 more to go. Better chiong. Still have to print them...

It's rather ironic that we actually get a lot more hw after our class tests, and we have kind of switched to holiday mode. So it's like, do hw for 30min or so, then switch to facebook or whatever game, then finally realising that there's hw to complete and continue doing hw again. and it's a cycle. always. that's why I'm blogging now.

Today... argh. almost got screwed by Miss Huang. Cos I didn't finish my compre (actually only the summary part). Lucky she spared me cos I was not here on Mon and Tues, and so I didn't have what the class discussed on Mon, and I have 1 day less (thanks Shanyao!). But still had to hand in after school... So skipped lunch. Hell. I hate AEA. What kind of crap is it? I really learnt something.

U noe, sometimes I just hate my class. Like you do something for them and they don't appreciate it at all. Like yea, Kaisherng and I spent like 3 hrs last night designing the front of the class tee, and today they just like "You have that design? I won't pay." And only like a few are giving suggestions on how to improve it. They just complain like shit and that's all. And Weiheng is like "Aya. Complain lah. let them complain." You noe, all those counselling was useless.

Class EOTA on Sat, and my parents don't allow me to go )': cos of my wound. It's bowling leh. So fun. I want to go... There aren't many chances to go bowling, esp when there are so many people. ARRRGGGGHHHH.

And when I can't go for bowling, I doubt I can go and help Kaisherng in interviewing some people for our project. And that's real bad.

I just remembered that I promised to go to coro before June holi. And I obviously can't now. Cos tomorrow I have to go to the clinic AGAIN to change my dressing. Argh. I really hate this bloody surgery. Makes life so hard. It's not moral to break promises. But really, I feel damn guilty. My only choice is go like in term 3, or if I'm really lucky, I get to go during SLC week. But chances are very slim, and I obviously can't access the classroom... I'm sorry. But actually sorry isn't anyhow helpful.

Let's talk about ACSI Council investiture. It was actually quite FUN! The ACSI Auditorium, as they call it, is actually an air-conditioned hall, with loads of chairs. Haha. And the whole ceremony was quite good, frankly. First, the school will sing the national anthem. This part was damn funny, cos the sound system screwed up, and we had to sing acapella. The pastor, I think, was leading. Damn funny. And I like the part where the 4th council enters, and the 3rd council steps down - here, literally. Their stage has this circle of stairs, not like our school, and they are standing on the stairs, so when they "step down", they really step down the steps. Haha. Sadly we can't do it in HCI cos our auditorium and hall only has steps at the side. End of ceremony, went down for tea reception. Wlao, my blazer is DAMN screwed, cos the sleeves a bit short. haiz. Then went on school tour. Actually ACSI somehow seemed bigger than our school, cos firstly, the school buildings are much closer together, and secondly, we were going in rounds without knowing so! Ha. And frankly, their campus is nt as beautiful as I thought... But still quite cool lah. And then we went to slack at the canteen for about 2 hours, then we left. Haha. The councillors who toured us were so nice people! The only sad thing is that we didn't exchange contacts, and we don't even know their names! argh.

Listening to my Grade 8 pieces now. And I realised a GRAVE mistake I made... Esp the dynamics part. I realised that I have been playing more and more violently these days... Hmm I wonder why... But the recording is retarded. A classical piece is played like a romantic one, with inconsistent tempo and all sorts of weird things. Dunno if I should follow. And yes, I seriously need to tune my piano. It's just getting more and more weird. I think I last tuned it almost a year ago... I see why.

If I'm not wrong, we won't be having Drama and Malay next term! So that'll mean 2 things: 1 extra chinese ): and music! (: Bet we're not getting TanBB anymore, and hope we're learning keyboard! Cos it's obviously more fun than normal music lessons. And heard that sec1s this year is getting music tests. HAHA. I laugh at them.

You know, nowadays teachers actually like students who are like so guai, like always hand in work on time even when it is like spammed homework. S/he doesn't realise that while these students may be like "perfect", they might be working like until 3 or 4am to achieve that "perfection", and with this "perfection" achieved, their health gets less "perfect". And once health is down one day, the student can never ever achieve the "perfection" in his studies anymore, until he is cured and well again. This damage is actually worse than the "not so perfect" students not doing "perfectly". Ultimately, health is the most important, and these teachers do not realise that they are actually destroying students' health. How many students lack sleep these days? How many actually want to doze off before school, during recess, after school on the bus, at the bus stop, or even during lessons? Just ask, what has education done to youth nowadays?

Ok better go finish my chapter summary. I'm obviously gonna screw up.

The matter of trust. Why is it that I'm spoiling it?

Had a minor operation today. Walao it was damn freaking retarded.

I had this bump on the butt cheek and I went to the clinic to check it, cos it has been growing for the past 1 yr + and now its damn big. The doctor looked at it, then was like "ok infection. you have 2 choices: antibiotics, or a cut". At first he was saying that it would be more advisable if I took antibiotics for a week first and observe. Then wat happened, my father went to extra like "lets do the cut".

I had to wait for almost like an hour outside the treatment room. Then they called me in to get ready. The nurse was actually quite crappy - mood swings liddat. Then the doctor came. I was like half-naked. argh. They applied alcohol on my skin, i tink, then gave me a jab. tat was actually the most painful part of the whole thing. The doctor was like "ok breathe in... and out." it helped man. I tink i was so tensed up I almost pulled a hamstring. Heh. It was the most painful injection in my life. abt 3 min aft the jab the doctor squeezed with my bump then asked me if it was pain. Frankly, no feeling at all. haha. pure numbness. Then I was absolutely uninformed abt wat happened, other than knowing tat after there was total numbness, the doctor took a knife, and tats all tat i noe. Cant feel a single thing, exept tat theres some liquid trickling down my waist. And the doctor suddenly asked like "Pain, Han Yi?" Then I was like "What pain? has the cutting started?" The nurse said like "yes it has" then continued. It was totally painless, like someone removed ur nerves liddat. Then next, the only thing I can feel is the doctor tugging something out of my wound, and I hav no idea wat. The doctor and the nurse are actually conversing in MALAY, and I kinda understand abit.

After the somehow minor operation the doctor said theres sth with my skin there, and he sent my smear for testing. heh. hopefully it'll return negative.

now my main concern is how I'm gonna survive. Cos I can only sit half the chair. And my right leg is like disabled. I have to stand on the bus. Argh. GG.

In the meantime, I need some rest. Heh. Bye.

Sharing emotions.

CSM is over. Actually It was not that fun, cos our dear schoolmates just refused to cheer, and in the end Nanyang won the cheering competition. And actually that's all that I care of for CSM. And I didn't see anyone I know today. Well not like I did last year.

Actually this year was actually BETTER, cos at least our cheering volume kinda made sense. Liki was like so damn pissed at the end when Nanyang was kinda owning (partially cos they cheered full force INTO THE MICROPHONES), and actually he hyped us up a lot. It helped, but then the last Rock You was screwed. Most people can't remember the lyrics. As usual.

NTUC at Coro is actually not that bad. The prices, I dunno, haven't actually compared yet. But at least Ryan and I found quite some food that can be sold in iLounge. And NTUC is so much nearer, so it'll be so much more convenient conpared to someone in the OT lugging like drinks and food from home. Ouch. Hope I can go to Coro someday before June Holidays.

iLounge - I just hope there's some way to make it more interesting. Although people are still rather satisfied with our current sales of F&B and board games. Haven't tried out Movies yet. Doubt they'll like it though. Cos they still prefer a place to play or sth. Dunno lah.

I srsly dunno what the hell is wrong with our class. You have people opposing whatever you do in all ways, and people are just getting more and more selfish. Our FT had to resort to sending the school counsellor to solve the problems. And I really dunno what to do. Everyone kinda has different problems, and I don't have so much time to solve them one by one. Maybe, I should just step down and I won't have anymore troubles.

Chatting on handphone, and suddenly thought that I should go watch some movies. But not like I can. Just going out with classmates or section mates for an outing will get them like... I dunno.

This June holi is gonna be disastrous. Loads of HW, projects, and quite some council and cmc stuff to solve. And I'm still wondering if I can survive July Strings concert. And then ticket selling problems. Especially when 6E will screw me when I post the concert details on the blog. haiz.

Going to stop here. Cya.

I'm SUCH a failure.

wow long time since i last posted...

tests are almost over! left LEP coming in 3 days. Aiya. That LEP, dunno how the scoring system works, but if i guessed correctly, then I can get A1 even if I fail the test xD it's the most retarded thing ever.

results are so-so. at least majority are better than Term 1, other than humanities. Argh. Dropped like SHYT. dun wan to elaborate on it.

openhouse today! :D and it was so NOT slack. i was sitting in the VERY FUNCTIONAL ops room, which was SO USEFUL, and all I had to do is, help Mr Sua listen to the Walkie-Talkie messages and respond accordingly. the few major things i did: check on the ushers and made sure they knew where to direct caligraphy competitors (college organised a caligraphy competition today and some people from other schools - nygh and st.nicks i think - were flooding in together with parents comin for openhouse), printed extra signages for SRC, usher some parents to SRC, and go around to inform string orch, especially, when to start their performance. actually seriously, NOT SLACK. when SOMEONE (stares) is playing facebook. *ahem* *ahem* nope, not me. serious.

ok i srsly dun wan post much today, but KEEP TAGGING!!! bye!

Just read Chay Choong's blog regarding our SYF. He has a point there.

Quoting from his blog:

I was shocked. Before listening to the recording, I was under the impression that HCISO did a wonderful job on stage. Everyone was so confident, claiming no mistakes were made on stage. But I heard intonation errors, messy pizzicatos, etc. and I don't understand why HCISO is so satisfied with their performance. I understand the spirit was high, but I think they were too obsessed with improving their spirit, neglecting their quality of sound.

Quality can never be replaced perfectly by spirit, and although HCISO lacks the bonus points in quality, they could have worked on it, instead on focusing on their already-imba spirit.

So ultimately why is it that Mr Chan has been saying that we were playing at near-perfect standard? Was it supposed to be an encouraging comment, which turned out to be misleading? Or was it Mr Chan's grave mistake?

So ultimately, is our Silver a well-deserved award for us?

Yes we have been said to be the "most enthusiastic, hardworking, and spirited" batch. Yet, why is it that we deem ourselves an ensemble that is extremely not bonded and spirited and enthusiastic?

I'm gonna load the MP3 into my player and spam play on the bus.

Hold it. I don't want any trouble on the bus.

Ignorance is not always bliss. In fact, it may be the exact opposite sometimes. My heart hurts now.

Poof! Syf is over.

6 months of intense rehearsals, drilling, practising, and of course PRAYING, all gone within 10 min on stage. And yea. We played our very best at republic poly. And when we step off the stage, we could feel the satisfaction, that we played well, as one HCISO, together.

Back at the orch room, Mr Chan spoke to us. He said, it was the best we have ever played, other than the first bowing that screwed up. And he, Miss Ting and Mrs Tay all agreed that we are most likely to clinch GwH. I myself dunno how we played, cos you can't judge your own music on stage. It's misleading.

We all went to Sakae Sushi to celebrate. A buffet meal. It was fantastic. Thanks Mrs Tay! And results were at 4pm. At 3.30pm, I decided to follow some of them back to republic poly for the results. We rushed there in a cab, cos there was no chartered bus. If I'm not wrong, all of us took about 6 cabs. So it's 30 people. And yes we rushed there in time.

Results. We were like anticipating some good results. Then that guy started reading the results, in order of appearance. "ST01, Dunman Secondary School, Bronze" Didn't hear them play, so I didn't bother. Then "STo2, Anglo-Chinese School Independent, Gold" I was like, thought ACSI was a damn imba school who always gotten GwH? who knows, maybe they screwed up this time. Then next, "ST03, Nanyang Girls' High School, Gold" I was rather shocked. Cos I heard them play from backstage and they were fantastic. I have absolutely no idea what happened, but I could sense something was wrong. Then "ST04, North Vista Secondary School, Bronze" Don't bother. Then we're next. "ST05, Hwa Chong Institution," Our hearts stopped beating. "Silver" they sank. I looked at Wen Qi. For once, I see the guy who seemed to care the least for HCISO want to cry. I looked at the rest. All shocked. I almost laughed. Is this a joke? But it isn't. Then I heard RISE's results. Gold. I heard them play too, and I know we're rivals, but they still deserve a GwH. Now, where did the GwHs go? I was wondering, will they announce the honours later or something? Here we have it. "ST14, Dunman High School, Gold with Honours" Ok, game over. That's the only honours we have for high school. Then for JC, HCJC got Gold. RJC got GwH. They were like cheering like mad cows. So I turned to Johnny. "Wheres that strawberry dessert thing you got from Sakae Sushi? Throw it at them."

Actually I had no means of tearing at all. It's like, every school got bad results, what's there to tear about? But after I heard the dialogue with the judges, I sensed the screw up in this SYF. We all deserve more. The judges are crap. Guitar specialist, composers, and ultimately there's only ONE stringer. It's all retarded.

Then after the dialogue, Alwyn did a short debrief. During that, I kinda teared. Zher Yin was sobbing, and it was rather influential. I know we are guys, we shouldn't cry, but we just can't control. It's a SILVER, come on, a SILVER. We were told to change the history of HCISO. We did, we succeeded, by getting a SILVER. What is this?

Then Mr Sze rushed to us with this pissed off face. "Hey boys, the judges are there. Go clear whatever doubts you have. You all are still young, so you all can ask whatever innocent questions you have. We all did not get a fair judging, so c'mon, it's the chance to get them! Go, boys!" then he walked away. I wanted to shout back "thank you", but it just can't come out. Yes, we did go and ask the shit out of those judges.

Those judges were absolute crap. They just go in circles. It's so damn pointless. But this question by Alwyn pissed me off like shit. "For example, School A and School B. School A plays a piece which is much more difficult than School B, and they play at the same standard. Which school would get better results?" They say school B, cos they chose a piece which suited them best. Easy ones. I really want to kill the judges man. Ultimately, they say results don't matter. It's how you play and what you learnt that matters. Yes, that's very true. But when we show that bloody silver medal to our principal, you think we can just tell him that "it's not important because we learnt something, and that's all we need"? He'll smack you in the face man. Overseas judges just dunno what this SYF is about. Yes, FESTIVAL, but we take it as a COMPETITON. You see, out of the 5 judges, 2 from Singapore, 1 Canada, 1 UK, 1 Australia. What is this?

And on that night, I didn't really cry or feel bad. Cos when I talk to others, thru sms or msn (well mainly sms), I really feel better. Yup, both of us all suffered from the "SYF'09 catastrophe", but it helps when we try to cheer each other up. It's just fantastic to have friends.

I actually cried in school the next day, after chatting with Benjamin during PE. After that I was walking down to the canteen and I just started tearing. No one saw me. And I was emo all the way until school ended. It was just unfair. TOO UNFAIR.

I got this full syf recording. And I was listening to it yesterday. I was damn touched by some pieces, cos they just played so well but didn't get the award. NYSE - it's obviously a GwH. Mr Chan mentioned, they are the BEST ensemble. BEST. Best with a Gold? No way. Almost cried when I think of it, esp when the music is playing. It was just too unfair.

We all hope something will be done. Re-judging? Well, hopefully. See if our conductors will fight for it. We have no power at all.

Where did the GwH go??? Why must it be so cruel? We want fairness in judging, or else, no one would participate in SYF'11. We have a deal. no fair judging, no SYF'11.

I'll stop here. Just one last thanks to Mr Chan and Dr Yeo for their guidance, our Teachers in Charge for their support, and all my friends. And lastly, thank you so much, HCISO.

Thanks to all who tagged. Sorry I'm really not in the mood to reply. But keep the tagging going. Thanks loads.

I loved the times. Thanks. Friends 4Eva.