Think of this:

In this world, for this certain thing you want to do, the future job you want to get, the target you want to achieve:

How many dreamt of it?
How many liked it?
How many decided to work towards it?
How many actually took action?
How many succeeded?

And ultimately, what if you don't succeed? What will be your next step in life, especially when the previous steps have taken you like half your life?

To think or not to think. To go for it or not to go for it. To take the risk or not to take the risk.

It's too hard to decide.

Arrgghh lit test on Monday! Real afraid I'll screw up. Not like there's a quote sheet this time... Actually yes Miss Huang say I improved in my essay, but that's with the condition that there's no time limit and I can refer to the book. And with that I still get A2. Yes improvement but not very good. Then recalling that after Wei Heng and I collected our essays, Miss Huang decided to go home, and told us to get A1s, then gave that creepy smile. Argh. Pressure.

Great. iLounge is back to normal. Other than some very random measures for the supposedly deadly H1N1. But at least better than some movie screening with fixed seats and ticketing. which made me think so hard about how to set up an online ticketing system. =.= But actually I'm getting it. Using flash. (:

Yay Mediation Forum! Yongming is representing iCouncil while I'm representing iCMG. It's quite cool! And Mr Krison was saying "I think you'll need it (for your class)" haha. And that's exactly what Mr Chua said to Yongming. *hints to class problems* iSpark has only 2 people (: haha. and I'll have to present to the iCMG after I attend the forum. But still, very cool :D

I just realised I can FTP blogger to an external domain. Yup. I'm gonna try to do that when I have time (: and can be used for AWOS site too. YAY!

ok gotta go. cya! (:

National Day weekend. Really very nice. Ahem.

Started off with? Sectionals. Wow. Although it was enjoyable. Especially the part where we all owned Zheryin in soccer. :P They say I'm violent in soccer. I wonder...

Then what? That random wedding reception. My father dragged me along. Not much. Quite boring.

Next morning went for OBS health checkup. And can't really believe that a few simple tests which lasted 5min cost a whole 34 bucks. Real scam. And can't use insurance some more. Irritating.

Then I spammed homework. Like duh. Still have to mug for tests.

This year's NDP was great. Better than the rest. At least everything kind of made more sense than the past years' ones. At Marina, that is.

So, today. What's today? Spamming the script. Our group was actually first to post, and I like our masterpiece! Although only 3 out of 5 members were active.

Now, spamming geog. Then chinese next. Ahhh... I hate tests.

Can't believe I post in short paras today. Lame.

I saw this thing on Phoenix. When you translate it it's something like this:

When Mother is with me, I always hoped that she would stop nagging, stop caring for me, and leave me alone. How I wished to leave and be free.

Now, I am free. But yet, I'm hoping every day that Mother can nag me, can care for me.

(The rest I didn't catch much)

I mean, it's true. Hoping that your parents won't be a busy body and care so much. Sometimes you will try to understand, but most of the time you just can't control. You just hope you can immediately run off to the bording school or something.

I guess, it's just the typical teenage life.

What does this mean?

I never got the point of spreading our tests over 5 weeks. Week 4 to week 8. With week 8 having the most tests. We have like only one or two tests a week, other than Week 8, where we have 5 tests. Sometimes it may be good to have it all spread out, but then teachers spam homework as usual and you never get the time to revise.

Ok. Now what. Our class is going down the slope. Again. With just Yong Jian's attempt to enlighten the principal, and that's it. Now the class is like going hystarical. And the CMC seemed to make no difference. Not that they're not doing anything. The class just doesn't listen. Argh. Attitude problems. Most people.

Can't believe National Day celebrations are till 12.30. And Qifa ends at around 11. Great. And teachers are encouraging us to go back to our primary schools. We really can make it. Totally. And with EP3 coming up at 2.30, I really have a lot of time. I never understood why teachers organised it this way.

3rd Stand for now, without sec 4s. Quite in front for me, but I'm used to it, since it's the same place, same desk, and same partner as SYF. It's cool. 2nd row. But when sec 4s come I'll be in 5th stand. Wow. But doesn't matter. At least it kind of means I can fake behind. I mean it doesn't matter as long as you have the chance to contribute to the orchestra.

Science and History test tomorrow. I'm quite fine with Science, because the physics content for this term is real easy, sort of. But History - after an extremely bad experience last term, I realised how sucky I was at this branch of humanities, although it is very fun, just like other humanities subjects. I kind of like humanities, but amazingly I just can't strive in it. Hopefully I get to do well this time. The test is supposed to be easier.

Quite looking forward to doing the radio documentary. Sounds so fun! And the script-writing is also somehow interesting. But the bad thing is, a lot of limitations. Argh.

And maths ACE. I'm kind of struggling with some. Hopefully I get the time to do it. And Chinese - We're supposed to write a SONG. Seems cool. Maybe I should try. But also, once again, super limited.

You know, I never get the point of posting when no one actually tags. Maybe no one reads either. This blog is as good as dead. Why am I still bothering to post? Maybe I should just delete this blog someday. Or set it to private. There will be much much more freedom in posting, since no one can read. Currently this blog seems like a private one. No readers. Not sure how long this is gonna last.

What on earth is going on?