We gave you the opportunity.
We sacrificed our mugging time for you.
Yet, you let go of the opportunity.
You wasted our time.
But never mind.
Ultimately, it's your results.
You can screw it up and suffer yourself for all we care.
And if you don't give a damn about the class,
We won't give a damn about you.
We have done our best.
If you don't cooperate,
We have nothing we can do.

Out of five exemptions
Four stayed back
Just to hope you can do better.
Finally, one stayed.
And he said, if you have nothing to do,
I'm more than glad.
And in one corner, a group of three
Towering over their laptops and PSPs
With earphones hooked on
Totally out of our world.
No one is interested,
And no one will.

It's pathetic.

Weiyu: A2? Yeah. I suppose so...
Ruoxi: Yup, the retarded lame poems. But still quite fun when I haven't done it for so long!
Weiyu: Yea, expected, cos I hardly update. Heh. Ahwell. 2 subjects. I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED SCIENCE!!! But sometimes this system can be quite retarded, cos some people get exemptions for like their worst subject and don't get for their best. The criteria is super confusing. Don't worry lah, we can get commited team members for OM, provided we want to participate lah. It still seems fun (: yea. Jiayou for EOY too! What's with the "YAY"?

Ah. EOYA super 头痛 leh. There were like 10 choices and people were not satisfied, cos they want LAN. And what's next is that we have suggestions for dangerous sports like Wakeboarding. I think they want to wakeboard to their wake or sth. And for supposedly new and fun things like paintball and laser tag, they find it boring. Bowling, they say too common. Movie, too sian. Party, they say too lame. Settlers Cafe, also sian. Then the two theme parks, they find it TOO FAR. WTF. We're in Singapore, hell. So Wei Heng went to check out the Escape theme park website, and found it quite nice, and most suitable. And what are we doing now? Propoganda. "Force" everyone to vote for that. Actually Egroup voting is tedious and ineffective. But every time I want to vote in class, like before reading period, we'll always run out of time, for some weird reason. Like what, the bell rings, they need to distribute the papers or magazines, the teacher's here early, or the champion: the clock dropped and we have to fix it. Total epic failure. Democracy FTW.

Counselling is fun! Just did some counselling on Yong Jian, and used a bit of mediation skills. Quite successful, and Bowei was asking me if I want to try counselling as a career in future. What nonsense. -.-

Mugging time, or I die. Bye.

Mug + HW + Slack + Sleep. What is this?

I finally had my literature done,
Now it's time for that chemistry junk.
And with some History to mug every day,
Not forgetting Geography the classic way.
English and Literature will get an absolute yes,
Chemistry and Bio - neither am I the best.
Maths and Chinese I've gotten rid of,
So that's three mornings which I've got myself off.
So what will I get from all these work?
A perfect MSG, or just prove myself a jerk.

Back to primary school days, when we write those lame poems. But sometimes it can be quite interesting. (:

Aha. 2 Exemptions this year. Maths and chinese.

Maths is rather obvious (no intentions to niao). I already knew so actually. Chinese was rather surprising, with 2 A2s and only 1 A1 so far. But after all it's good to know I'm top 5 in class (: and good thing about chinese is that I supposedly skip 2 exams, paper 1 and paper 2. The main sad thing is that I didn't get for Science, thanks to Mr Low's chemistry in Term 1. The other subjects are quite expected to be the way they are now.

And now, which programme to choose next year!? Xie Lao Shi is pulling me to BSP, Mr Koh just recommended me to SMTP defence science, and my parents urge me to join HP. Actually I'm thinking of choosing HP, although frankly it's the most unsuitable choice. My chinese exemption proves myself kind of suitable for BSP, and a maths exemption and physics quiz brings me to SMTP. And on the other hand, a freaking fat failure for history in term 2 somehow seemed to push me away from HP. But I don't want to specialise so early in some random science or maths, neither do I want to be stuck in Beijing for 6 months and for the rest of the time be burnt for random BSP camps and overseas trips. Humanities is most likely my weakest subject, and so I need to improve on it the most. I just can't leave it and let it rot, while I go and spend time on my already blossomed sciences and maths and attempt to make them larger and more obvious. I'm satisfied with my sciences (okay, nvm about chemistry, I'll work on it) and maths, so I might as well spend time on my Humanities. And yes, it's true that now with the consortium-based SP and CSE SP, the CSE one will be smaller and obviously more elite. I'm going for CSE, and if I select HP, I may not be able to get in, as I'm not good enough. But then Ms Choh mentioned that the class and programme size will be determined by the number of students who apply for it, so if that's the case I would be on the safe side. And Xie Lao Shi said that judging by my results, I am free to choose any programme, so I just hope I'll succeed. Yup, I'm going for HP. I don't care how hard it is to survive there and how much stress I'll have to sustain, I just can't let my Humanities off like this.

And speaking of this, I just lost my chance for HSSRP, because when I went to have a look, the deadline has already passed. By 20min. And I still have to discuss with my parents, who are deeply asleep. Also it's not very possible to craft any proposal within 5 days, especially when your mind is filled with EOY stuff and the creativity is already thrown to the back of the mind.

I feel like going for OM. I think it's classical or performance that Miss Huang's in charge of. It seems very interesting and fun. See if Yongming agrees. We need 7 people. Wonder who. Will Zhong Xuan or Jay agree? And who else is suitable (frankly maybe I'm not very, other than the fact that I can make music, which is kind of irrelevant and unimportant, although can be quite useful since singing is involved)? It's not a small group of people, and we need committed ones. Hard job.

Actually, yes, I've been spamming things related to Humanities these days. I really have to get in. Really.

Why am I giving up, letting go, and avoiding things that I should face? Is it that hard to face them? Facts are facts. Reality is reality. Accept them. It's not a suggestion or request, it's a command. You have to. You're obliged to. You have no choice.

HSSRP Proposal Writing workshop today. It was by GE Branch. And amazingly the dear Prof didn't touch on the word "proposal" at all. How amazing.

And it was particularly weird when people just started waving at people of other schools. So I asked them what they were doing. "Uh, ex-classmates. Saw three so far." And it just reminds me of 6E'07. So I desperately looked around, hoping to sight someone whom I know, and at that moment forgetting that it's a GE workshop. As far as I know, no one from 6E'07 is in SBGE.

The thought just drifted back into my mind, but this time it was much much heavier. I haven't visited Qifa this year. Which means I haven't seen anyone, other than Pui Jeng occasionally on the bus, and Hanzhi once too. But after a tiring day at school we're obviously too tired to talk. Normally we doze off on the bus.

Well, being the only one in HC... Can say it's lonely. Yes I do have new friends, and good ones, but then I don't want to lose my old ones. I seriously can't imagine what life would have been like without them. They're just so important.

Why is everyone asking me why I didn't apply for Exco?

Council day. Everything was fine. The meeting was enjoyable. We had some fantastically ingenious comments regarding everything. We almost lost our "council seriousness". But, being the last one for this year, I don't think they bother much. Unless it get's out of hand.

And at the end of it, before the HSC 2010 selection briefing, Sec 2s are asked to leave as it doesn't concern us. Then it was at that moment when Tiet Ho suddenly asked me "Did you apply for exco?" I shook my head. So he went on, like "Why???". And Zhong Hui budged in and asked the same question. Then Zhi Xian shouted over from two seats away. I waved the question away. And next thing Gary started fussing about it. "Come on Hanyi, why didn't you apply for Exco?" Just at the sandwich machine area I saw Gary, and he was like as if it's some fantastically great deal which can cause mass destruction or something. And he goes on "Why didn't you apply? You were like full of passion last year."

Yes I was full of passion for Exco. All the while I was. Even now. I only gave it up because I feel that I'm more fit to serve iCouncil just as a normal councillor without being in Exco. I want to serve through organising events, not organising the council. You don't need to be in Exco to be elite. It's just about how you want to serve.

And iCMG. I want to do something. I don't want my vice-chairman-in-training to be wasted. And I don't want to just sit there with the position, gain all the credit, and do nothing. As an in-training, I don't gain any credit; and I have to admit, I did nothing this year. But in upper secondary I want to improve iCMG. There's a lot to do. Mr Krison is leaving if I'm not wrong. I don't want his efforts to organise this guild to be wasted. And I want to make it even better. I suppose Mr Krison will be counting on me for this.

I mean, either way I'm serving in an Exco. I don't want to hog two Exco places. Give a chance to others. Yes, Gary, if I run for iExco I would have gotten in. And so I wouldn't have to fear being in SLC OT. But I should give others a chance, shouldn't I?

Wonder when all these questions will stop. Nevertheless, to those who asked, thanks for caring for me and supporting me (:

Term 4 is here. I have no idea what plans our teachers have, but just simply the first day and we have had a serious blow of projects. (Miss Huang... Yes Term 4 IS hell. I suppose you know that best.)

Now I'm spamming the damn lit project which was given weeks ago, but we totally forgot about it. It's due tomorrow. Miss Huang told us today. Wow.

So what is the worth of a man? In Merchant of Venice, which man? And from our theme, obviously the worth is totally about money. But then is that exactly what all the characters are worth?

Argh. Term 4 is not going to be a breeze. I'm anxiously awaiting my exemption notices. Wonder which subjects will be exempted. :X It's quite pointless to get exempted, yet it's also very crucial. It's like giving you a confirmed A1 3 weeks before EOYs. My target is 3 exemptions. Let's see how many I'll get.

iLounge. I think something just screwed up when I was on ILI MC. And some big screw up. iLounge really needs to be organised. I'm super scared. It'll be in the AAR. Definitely.

I have officially decided that I won't be running for iExco this year. I mean, yeah, people may think I'm scared of failing again or something. But I'd rather be a normal councillor and serve the school through what Councillors do best: organise events. Although iExco may be the elite councillors, I feel that the job of iExco just lacks the council taste. After all, you don't need to be in iExco to be a good councillor, and neither do you need to be in iExco to serve the school to the fullest. As Glendon told me after hearing about this, everyone decides to serve the council (or the school) in different ways, and whatever way it is, you are still serving the school, serving the student population. Exco or not, you are still part of the council.

Thinking back, this year I have not gone back to Qifa at all. I was down with fever on CNY, Nat day was a disaster, because we ended 2 hrs after Qifa, and I was down with ILI during Teachers' Day. Pui Jeng was saying that she wants to go back this term, but, argh, she wants to go back before EOYs. And with that random peer tutoring thing every afternoon, I doubt I have any time. And if we go back after EOYs, then it'll be Qifa's exams, and teachers will be busy. Just almost impossible.

Shieh Lao Shi just asked me to stay back to help her do some animations for a powerpoint presentation. Initially I was thinking, easy job, will get it done in like 5 mins. So I asked her how long the PPT was. She simply replied "不多，五十多罢了。" That moment was totally :O It was a 56-slide PPT, and there are animations for every slide. Argh. But it's hard to reject. I had nothing on after school, and Mr Chia is nowhere to be found. So I decided to spam for her while she sits beside, randomly giving a thumbs up, clapping, or uttering "吐血". She dragged me until 3pm. I reached home and had my lunch at about 4pm. It was totally absurd.

Now I'm still rushing that damn project. What is the worth of a man? What can the Merchant of Venice tell us about this?

Term 4 is here. Finally.