Aha, I'm back from OBS, like 4 days ago. I'm not gonna write out the whole experience, cos it's extremely long. But overall it was FUN! My greatest takeaway was that I lost 2kg =D hahaha

Whoa, iLounge AAR + SOP. I realised that typing it in is harder than the discussion itself. The AAR template seems to have loads of redundant columns, but I don't dare delete any. And I just realised that we missed out PUBLICITY!!! ARGH. It's the most important part, and it went badly this year.

iExco elections! Amazingly it didn't go as I had expected, and I seriously think it's quite screwed. Still liked last year's atmosphere more. Nevertheless the candidates did quite well, and I just hope those that I voted for will get in. (:

Alright. I think my holidays are starting to get clogged up. But still looking forward to RETREAT!!! Can't wait to spam cards or whatever on the bus and in the hotel room. Hopefully this year we're allowed to change rooms, so I can be with Wai Lun (and this time with some other guy, hopefully Keith or Wei Heng). And this time it won't be so tired, cos it's only at KL.

Looking at the Sec 3 booklist. Scary. For SMTP Physics we need to buy College Physics. It's gonna hurt, learning such advanced physics... And I'm opting to take bio (:

Maybe I shouldn't go CSE. I may not qualify anyway...

Alright. Back to AAR. Currently solving table problems. Damnit. Byebye!

I think I can't live without your presence.

Here comes OBS. Livingstone. Camp 2. Heard that camp 2 will be hell. Let's see.

Finished my father's website. And quite satisfied, just that my father's so fussy he wants a "simple" one, and when I try making a good one he just starts nagging about this and that. The flash one has too much cartoon, so it's not very suitable. But I'm sure the current one will own all those that his colleagues have. ;p I'm just thinking of how to make it better. Hmm... Anyway I can't change it later since I'm going for OBS. (:

It was super weird when Yong Jian asked me if we really need to bring sanitary napkins to OBS because the packing list mentioned it. -.- Like if you need one, yeah sure. Anyway the list says "sufficient supply", which is absolutely to your own preference. Okay this is lame.

Just realised that some of my friends on FB who seemed to have totally no link with each other are actually friends. It's totally weird. And it just appeared to me that many people from Qifa actually went to international schools. Then it just reminded me of 2 years ago when my parents almost dragged me to international school, especially when I already got my Hwachong confirmed offer. And now my parents are considering whether to send my sis to an international school. I never get what's so good about international schools.

I feel like changing my skin. But first, I have to create one. Desperately thinking of (and seeking) ideas---

Feel despo all of a sudden.

Hmm, I'm still thinking of what to do for the class. It's hard with the short time span. And Mr Krison's leaving. Have to do something for him. Wei Heng's totally inactive. And class EOYA has to be settled soon. And Wai Lun is more or less inactive too. Everyone's inactive after the EOYs. I wonder why.

Oh, and now I have to take note of everyone's birthdays.

Post-EOYs is sian.

iSparkNite was quite good. (:

iMakan was sort of a screw up. Because the caterer came 45mins late... -.- the people seriously damn slack. Feel like killing them.

Paper checks these days were super epic. But for my own results, I hope it remains as epic on Tuesday. (: The results I got back are:

Science - 82.5/100, top in class
Geography - 46/50, top in consortium

And I'm obviously quite satisfied with these results. But considering how bad the class did, I can't really cheer much. And for once, I announce my results on the blog...

Geog results release was the most surprising of all. Like, first Mr Lau announced the overall MSG for each of the four classes, and it (obviously) turned out that our class was last, again. And hearing that our class MSG was about 3.2, I was thinking, darn, that's it, I'm done for, no more HP. Then Mr Lau said that the top in the consortium was from our class. This was also kind of expected sometimes, as we have super imba people (ahem ahem not talking about myself) who get super imba marks, then the others pull the whole results down. It's like some very skewed data, and to both ends. But I never expected the top to be me... Mr Lau just went "And the top is none other than... (eyes sweep around the 2I4 area) Han Yi!" I just kept my mouth open. Never expected to do so well in a subject which seemed to be like one of my worst, and especially during EOYs and that I didn't mug very thoroughly... I don't know why he said "none other than". Like it's anyhow expected... And the sad thing is that when I browsed through the results when I collected them back, I think I'm the only one above 40 if I'm not wrong. It's quite sad.

(and Jopescu got the same marks as me, but didn't get any recognition... hahahaha)

Science was also super sad. I was the only A1, and the next person was about 10 marks less than me. I was followed by 3 A2s. Gahh... Class MSG was about 3.95. I tried to beg for marks for the rest, Mr Low said he was being very lenient already. Argh.

It's pointless if I'm the only one getting the high marks. If the class screws up in the end, what's the point of my highs and tops?

And my worries are in Lit, English, and sort of History (actually not much since I just need to pass it to get A1 for IH overall ;p), or in other words the rest of the subjects... ARRRGGHHHH. I don't want to go to OBS in some random trauma from my screwed up results that I'll get on Tuesday.

Damn tired. Guess I'll go sleep soon.

All the best to those still having EOYs. (=

The end is coming... *sobs*

History's left. And I get to wake up at 8.30 AGAIN!!! But History content very screwed leh. Darn.

I feel so relaxed. Considering I still have History, being relaxed is not a good sign.

And my post exam schedule is... rather tight. Not much freedom, I guess.

Have been niaoing Pui Jeng on MSN, and I think it really pissed her off xD haha being evil can be great very bad. tsktsk. ahem.

The new theory is that usually, when students are very lazy, they're also lazy to go to Facebook or blog. But now, as the EOYs are coming (or in progress), students get very hardworking and they treat Facebook with the same attitude. That's why they're so active during the EOY period.

I mean, yes, one can argue that being on Facebook is just to relax a bit, but it does not take away stress, and only spreads it out. Like currently you get loads of stress during the EOY week. But after spamming Facebook during the EOY week, you don't get so much stress during the EOY week, and where does this stress go to? Post EOY, when you get your results! Makes sense, doesn't it?

Innocence is when the world's in grayscale. When you see the world in colour, it's a sign that you're experienced. I see some colours now.

Well, Keith obviously changed a lot.

A convo with him, Weiheng, and Kaisherng. More of mugging lit together.

Kai Sherng says (9:38 PM):
*wah mugger grp together
♫ hciso ♫ - Han Yi says (9:38 PM):
*the A1 group
♫ hciso ♫ - Han Yi says (9:38 PM):
*ahem ahem
Kai Sherng says (9:38 PM):
*ahem ahem
♫ hciso ♫ - Han Yi says (9:38 PM):
*scarely all F9
Keith Loh says (9:38 PM):
*Hopefully :)
Kai Sherng says (9:38 PM):
*woots

See? Mugging really changes lifes.

3 down, with 1 screwed. 3 more to go.

English Paper 1 was kind of screwed. Thanks to that exposition. Shouldn't have chosen it. Ahh. But I may not screw up that badly lah. Let's just see...

English Paper 2 was a total scam. Miss Huang warned us that it'll be the hardest compre in the year, but it turned out to be one of the easiest -.- People have been swearing after the exam. I wonder why...

Science was quite okay for me. I just screwed up for one question (according to Kai Sherng) when I need to draw a diagram AND explain. I forgot to write the explanation part. But nvm, the whole question was only 3 marks, and since I drew the diagram I should secure at least 1 mark. I can't say I'll get an A1, but I'll only need 63 to get an A1 for overall, so... should be fine. But I just don't get why others found it so hard... Kai Sherng almost wanted to cry after that. Uh...

Okay so I'm left with lit, geog and history. I'll do lit quotes tomorrow, and a bit of history and geog. Sunday I'll spam geog. considering I haven't started on it...

I'm still thinking of my post-EOY plan. Shouldn't be doing this though.

I wonder what the Qifa Alumni is. Like they ask for your address... I think it'll be some mailing list or that sort. Doesn't sound very attractive. Shall consider it after EOYs.

I want to go back to Qifa...

Here comes the EOYs. Tomorrow. Survive, or die.

Well, coming to think of it, my post-exam schedule is quite tight. It all begins with paper-checking, iSparkNite, and OBS. Ahh, OBS. It'll be fun, but the preparation is super tedious. After OBS, there's one week for myself (or maybe not), other than planning for class EOYA and SOP for iLounge. Then there will be choosing of programmes, and finally iRetreat. Hectic schedule, but at least better than mugging. Haha.

And my plan for December Holidays? I want to sort out my certs (they're in a real mess), spam-study the three science textbooks, and most importantly, READ!!! I seriously need to read something. My English is going to die. And Chinese, yeah I got exempted, but I'm still not that good.

Today was the last day of lessons. I'll definitely miss the teachers. Ahwell. And I got my AMC (Australian, not American) cert. It's lame, "Certificate of High Distinction" and the score sheet was totally similar to the ICAS one. I had like ticks for the first 20 questions, until I got a fat cross for qn 21 and another for 25, I think. That cost me 10 marks. Then question 28 cost me 8 marks, so I lost 18 marks in total, bringing my score to 117 / 135. Gahh, 3 HELL MARKS TO THE PRIZE AWARD!!! But it was a great improvement, as I only got 71 last year. Heh. Now I'm wondering where my ICAS maths certs died to. Especially last year's. The score was not captured in the online system. Or did we even take it? -.-

I can't believe Edward trusts me so much. During malay lesson, he didn't bring his file, so Cikgu Tan asked him to explain in Malay. I was sitting right in front, so he turned to me for some random inspiration. I asked him to say "Saya tak faham", and he just turned around to Cikgu Tan and said exactly that without hesitation. Wow. And then he was tested on numbers. Cikgu Tan showed a number 6, and he turned to me for inspiration again, so I told him "sembilan", and he actually trusted me again! Well, got him slaughtered, duh. but FOR ONCE, EDWARD TRUSTED ME!!! LOL

Okay, back to exams...

I HAVE to survive this. I HAVE to do well.

This will most probably be my last post before I switch to Exam Mode, but I may post over the weekends.

Okay. The actual journey begins. Let's go...

Something new which I learnt from Xie Lao Shi today.

不为也非不能也

But since this is the case, then I was thinking

能也为何不为也

Not doing something doesn't mean you don't know how to.
But if you do know, then why not do it?

Aha. Here comes EOYs. 1 more day.

It's quite good considering that other than this Thursday, I only have one subject per day. Well, 2 exempted subjects, and 3 papers down (chinese has 2 papers). Sort of an improvement from last year, but considering that last year's subjects were both muggable and chinese for this year is unmuggable, it's still, argh.

I simply can't wait for exams to finish. The stress during the exam period will be intense, but considering what will come after that (uhh... iSpark Nite, OBS, Retreat, results), think it's still worth it. After all, it's just one week. Just.

Science is hell. I mean, bio is hell. Not because the subject is not interesting, but that teachers just never make it clear. Every teacher says different things, and whatever they say is so vague that when you look at the notes you never get what the profound details mean. I have a feeling of doubt that teachers don't even understand the notes they have made.

So here's my plan: chiong in Chem and Physics, since I've already more or less mastered it, so I can still get A1 if I screw up my Bio. I'm unsure if the school's looking at the EOY results only or the overall grade, but if it's the overall grade that they're looking at, I'll only need to get like a B3 for an overall A1.

My main fear now: English, Lit, IH. In other words, all the other subjects. -.- Actually it's nothing much to fear, since we have done so much practice. Ohwell.

Tell me, how fantastic is it to have mosquitoes surrounding you and biting you till you wake up at 3am in the morning, and making you so awake that you can stone for half an hour and reply to smses? Or how fantastic is it, when you have these lovely pests flying around you and mugging with you? What hell.

Off to do Hitler for History. Notes, I just realised, are totally of no use to me. Especially History.

And I need to fill up gaps for English too.

Wow, first punishment during Chinese in my Sec 2 life. And it was super epic.

The first one was almost a punishment, but still quite ownage. Xie Lao Shi was testing Samuel on how to write the first para of Gong Han, and he can't remember some of the words, so I was hinting him (since he always looks at me for answers, and Xie Lao Shi assigned me to help him). Then Xie Lao Shi like 吃醋 liddat, so she suddenly screamed at me (in the microphone, mind) "不要告诉他！我自己会教。你再说我让你站到后面去！" WTF. She only did this to people who chat in class, and I am obviously NOT chatting with Samuel (wow, chatting with him while he's like answering a question?).

Then second epic thing was that she asked those who didn't do the Gong Han to stand up. So out of the 5 exempted people, 4 stood up (the guai one was Leslie lah, cos he already got a little taste during the Mo Xie, although that time Xie Lao Shi only quietly whispered to him why he never do etc, and there was no punishment.), with some others of course. So what? We were asked to stand at the back.

I bet only a few in class did the full thing. Many only did like a part of the HW, and most produced crap, just to escape the punishment. And if Xie Lao Shi asks who did not complete the thing, I bet only 2 or 3 people will be left sitting down.

Everyone makes mistakes. You can't prevent yourself from forgetting things, and neither can you blame yourself for it. The human brain is not perfect. But for homework like compos, it's pointless rushing it out last-minute, as you can never produce quality work, and homework without quality is totally nothing. It defeats the purpose of homework. I mean, okay, go ahead and rush your essay under the table and then hand it in as if you completed it a few days before. What do you learn? You do not do homework for the sake of handing it up, for the sake of escaping punishment.

So yup, we faced the punishment. We might as well face it, then go home and do it well. But we're in total denial that we want to slack, that we have no motivation to learn. It's only Xie Lao Shi's sweeping statement. And we're currently "excused" from being tutors, especially for this Gong Han assignment. It's only Leslie now. (:

It's true, sometimes teachers don't even get the point of homework. Maybe that's why students have a wrong perception of the education system, and a wrong attitude towards learning.

First is HP. Then there's an unresistable attraction to SMTP. Now I feel BSP is the right place for me.

Total screwedness. CSE HP and SMTP requires an A1 for english. For HP it's expected, but for SMTP... It's ironic, especially when the science teachers have the suckiest english in the school, other than the IS ones. I simply don't get it. So what ingenious thing I did today was, during the Q&A, I approached the microphone for the first ever time in HCI (other than that student body forum by HSC, duh), and I actually spammed like shit, because I tried to break down the first question and kind of trick the teachers into believing that the A1 for english pre-requisite is totally crap, but then they only stared at me as if I was an idiot. Gahh. And Dr Hon cut in. Everything just screwed up.

And I just found out that BSP is a 2-yr programme as long as I don't get the scholarship!!! So now it's the dilemma of which programme to choose... Argh. Why must everything be so complicated?